Picture-Talking

But all I know is

Everything's gonna be alright

Begining Gone Wrong

We should teach little kids the right thing, or else they will become what they are today! Now you and i, both know the reason! hahahhahaha tsk tsk tsk, so young alrdy like that, sigh haiz :( hhahahh
*Ps ,name of the person in the picture not said to protect her rights. hahahah
(I KNOW YOU ARE SMILING, alt mayb not as funny as just now) *whistle, first love seh!
One day i will make a story of the picture i collected, when i am bored, but she will kill me for sure.

Today was fun alt i waited for 45 mins cos, okay i was dumb by going to the wrong place, i hit me head on the floor, i got dust flying into my eyes, i got knock on the head and i got stares cos of my soft voice and many more stupid stuff that happen but i still enjoyed my day:) unlike the rest of the holiday, so boring. oh, i saw your botak patch! hahhahah okay now can botakzxz forever with me, cos i also :( but yours is cos hair messy, mine is like THERE, even no matter what :(
And too much laughter will result, your temperature increasing. shitzx

And to that particular one pengyouzx of mine, please cheer up:) everyt is gonna be alright:) whatever not, your another pengyouzxz will be always here for you! :) please be touched, *sobs sobs
:)

A bestfriend, More than a pet :(

horse ridding behide him when i was young ended up falling down. father acting pro, tie him to the bicycle ended up falling too. he sitting beside me, licking my face, looking at me when ever i am crying, when i was young. he welcoming us when ever we come home. when time pass, i get more and more busy thus forgetting him. i dont spend so much time like i use to with me, me ignoring him. :( remembering he looking at me with the pitiful face when every i cook, he being my only partner when i cooking after midnight. he trying to attack/bite my maid when me and my maid was playing. he was the only dog that always come back after 'running away'. second time he couldnt walk, every one though it would be fine as it happened before. but things got from bad to worst day by day. he couldnt walk to cant eat to cant even respond. i was eating that day, he tried to stand up but ended up falling dwn, my heart just sink dwn. i just teared, he looked/stare at me and look away. i called his name, he didnt want to look at me. i stare at him, his eyes were red with tears, i dont think my eyes were playing tricks with me. i know he feel so hopeless, such a burden but..... all we could do was just give him all that he needed. today, he totally didnt move, alt he was still breathing,eyes open. we start acting weirdly, i think he know whats happening and opened his eyes very big looking at us. his leg was swollen:( dont know why. before i went out today i said bye, i knew that was the last time i am going to see him, patting him, touching his glossy balck fur. my mother/ aunty brought him to the hospital, he died at 3.02? :( i was like probably laughing at like acting crazy outside:(

byebye money(dog's name lah kay) thanks for guarding our house for 11plus years. i will rmb you:(

please, i am not going to have any more pets. i dont know how daphne be so happy when her dog died!

Come On

Khalisah is the new daphne or maybe worst. satan boy is the most funniest thing. what ever happen, would be link to him. laughed like nobody's busy, okay like really super loud. just khali's face would want to make you laugh. and over to my house after, my laughter became worst. with the, íf she like me i think i will kill myself and aiyo this girl ah. i swear it was fucking funny and HORNY.
kapok this picture form jolene's blog becos her picture in my phone very.... thanks eh! take your picture. i think if i upload she will kill me. khalisah is the one with the more retarted face. on the right. :)

Time Can Change People :(

Supermarket-ed alone
Mother left me there to buy whatever i wanted to cook. pushed trolly, 1001 werid stares, non stop looking. dont ask why, cause idk. felt like some housewife/maid/ahma/aunty.
I am so bored this few days at home, cant do anyt but to cook.
When i am sad who can i go to? :(

Alt i know i mean nothing now, further more why should you listen to me but please change back to the old you, dont be so scary. tyvm.

Fan+Anti Club *winks

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YOU
-you get upset when someb is better then you
-you make stupid comments
-you change ppl
-you put words into ppl's mouth (not mine)
-you like to twist and turn stories
-you think you are the best
-you always shout at ppl
-you got freaking attitude problem
-you always say sorry but repeat the mistake right after
-you are so despo
-you are a attention seeker
-you always COPY ppl (ps, be yourself, be original)
-you like to act big
-you shout at me when i needed you the most, as a friend
-you are such a faker
-you are always the topic we (oh, so many ppl) talk about
-you should go reflect on yourself
-you are making us so embarrassed cos of your over friendly actions
-you better be careful of your friends, ppl are two face :) and i dont deny i am not
-lastly, you are so irritating

view daphne's blog, super funny, read all:)

sigh
i really, i really, nah, its okay:(
one day i will try to get the courage to say it to you, but as a friend

My New Girlfriend <2+1

Nah, happy not?
your so called, long awaited picture post!
eh eh eh, ii lurbxs euuu 4everrrr worzxs :)
evert call me ahlian (you worst, you act cute, but still failed)
evidence at the top right hand side
you click then enlarge to see if you dont believe
but love is blind
i forgive you + still love you

you must forgive me also

hahahha

because i put the picture name as daphne the super shit
hhehehehheheheheehhe
you become daphne ling i become esther ong
hahhaha
okay forget it if you dont understand

you are to bimbo to understand

jk hahha

dont be too touch okay

*sobs sobs

:)

sometimes, i would rather i be blind,deaf,dumb.
so that i wouldnt notice what is going around me and whats happening
i got so many things to tell you

too painful to go on like this
sigh:(

Oh No

i better stop lying to myself. now seriously, i am very sad:( stop lying okay? please? begging you. i am gonna be alright i hope. really mind = in = swirl. sorry but to use the childish way, say ppl say yourself.

anw, picture with post tmwr?

Jacked

Extra, make me feel like a fool. ended up alone. i have fallen for the trick:) anw good luck my fren:) things that you dont know. ha, omg, LOTS. oh, i dont want to be wet blanket:) sorry. stupid.

Dont Look Back

V Tired :(

Canoe?

skating? so long haven go, roller blade.
okay, enough
sigh

I Love Andrea (ltr bf see i die)

What should i put in this space?

i am not gonna be the fool the second time
i hope i can survive
i hope i hope
hope that
that day will come
when everty is gona be alright

i want to live at andrea's house:( fridge full of chocolates and more
okay i going home later to pack my bag
you will invite me right?:(
oh, i am at her house now
mrt ride to tamp were filled with stares
msgs with sister ended up with tears and more sadness
you dont understand me, you say i do things when i didnt
if you are not going to believe me, who will?
are you really my sister? you hit me, at my weakest point
the uncle stare at me like anyt:(
i tried facing the wall but no wall for me to hide.
embarrassed x10000
control control control
somet just hit me and pulled me back to where it all started
always, there is a reason for everyt
and same too, there is a reason why i got angry
frens come and go:) right? i am too used to it. hahhaahah funny? agree right
i didnt slp the whole of last night:( luckily there is no training:(
my memories are often painful...
i am going to be strong
i hope.....
sigh
bye

Lost

no cca tmwr:(=rot at hm. shitzx another day at home do rubbish. wake up eat slp eat slp. like seriously:( eh, i no money alrdy. i always buy so many things to eat. gone case. happy ah now? happy.

I Give Up

All i need to do now is to stop my mouth from eating non-stop. Believe me, i get hungry every mintue of the day. chocolates/sweets/food/sweet drinks, anymore? cant get enough of it :( stress/emotional shit->eat=fat. eat slp eat slp eat slp
tyvm. tmd

Second One

irritated now, like seriously. when dont have chocolate, go eat sweet that kind of thing. go and die. nvm if you dont understand. NB.

Sigh

to be nice or not to be. mayb i acting to treat you nice. nvr know. learn from you
*not refering to baydek(spell)

story of baydek makes me/ashley/yijin super angry. funny to think of it.

I Pick Up And Call

photo taking suck. smiles are like shit. my only slping time this few days are in school. i cant really bluf frens that are close. thanks for the concern, ppl who chaoed afternoon assembly again, but i cant hold it back. i am v happy kay:) nvr been so happy before!:) *smiles
the super sad person and super angry ashley, leaving monkey so fustrated. monkey you dont know why she angry.
always high after low. i tell them, I BANG YOU and start talking rubbish. 4 ppl who went to subway perfer me to be sad then hyper. but its like a after thing when every i cry. when i keep quite they, you okay not? when i hyper, then say i crazy. then what am i surpose to do?
i am going to lock my phone soon, not public phone.

reflect and reflect
ending up with nothing
The sun didn’t come up today
This lonely won’t go away
It somehow feels
Nothing’s real
It’s crazy.
How it’s so hard for me to just, call you
And it's a little in the conversations
There isn't anything that you can say
And my eyes hurt
so look at me and listen to me
There is no other way
I get the final say
I don’t know what it is
it’s like my insecurities, my fears
i am a useless person
who is stupid, dumb,bitchy,idiot and more
I know next to you is not where i belong
sigh

Disapointment

i should stop checking my phone like always in school
just make things worst
the more i think the more crazy i get
have you tried laughing and crying at the same time before
you dont know how much i had to hide
fucking hate to cry now
but but but
I saw you holding hands
Standing close to someone else
seriously, actually, who am i to bother your things?
i dont even see my stand.
i am nothing to you
and everyone too
i am just born to be an extra
everyt i mean something
no one would believe
counting backwards while the stars are falling

Hush Hush, I Have Alrdy Spoken What I Had To...

school was very boring. chaoed assembly with amelia. nadirah and frens joined us after shortly. super tired, last night nvr even slp. so i just put my DB seat on the floor, alt its super dirty and dusty, dont care abt uniform or hair(:x) and slp like its my bed. flat dwn, really into deep slp until nadirah's super minah songs woke me up. slp for 2 hours. daphne got some troubles with school cos she pon and teacher know. further more, she came to school just to follow me to DB. sorry. and teacher saw her. DB, coaxing the boat was great! i want to be that forever super shiok. i not bad right? first time my directions so good some more mr j nvr teach me:(. leave me alone there to find out how to control. i miss canoeing. db is like boring, but if i do coaxing i dont mind.
ppl say i turning blond :( my hair colour is like...&%!@^%#$@( blonds are stupid, thats wat they said.
Now I sit all alone.Wishing all my feeling was gone. I gave my best to you. Nothing for me to do.
:( i know i dont seem to care, my is acting number one. killing me. sigh

love you big time alt you got B.O after trainings, you and your ugly photos.

):

mixed feelings.
i have got a question,.................nvm.
that was enough to shut me up
unsure.
sigh.

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HBD pamelia. 15! you are the only most free girl that translates my japanese words into english!
while kao is the only person in the whole world that constantly makes me angry!

ちょっと、昨晩考えている私を得た。 他の女の子とあることを私に言ってはいけない。 私はちょうど自分自身を殺す。

Friends?

Really disappointed in you. went up wanted to apologise(for what i also dont know) but what i saw just made my mood change. Just say you have to go, instead of hiding? i will understand and not get angry. anw, i don't attitude/ be angry easily. it doesn't take much to open your mouth for opinions/ views/ comments. gold mouth you have? mayb we have left you out? idk. sorry if i did. alright, enough, very tired of this. super sad.
my friends come and go. not once, twice, but more then that. some of them, i dont even know if i can call them, friends.

i am stupid. subject(s)'s grade was like shit, alt i studied. eh, i did okay, seriously!

HELLO

saw NF's blog yesterday abt that njc coach, then jaslene told me also. hope he rest in peace.

over to bedok reservoir(i think) to run later with pig. hahhah okay jk. my aim is to run everyday every night:) and do my exercises before i bath:)

CAT

copy copy. everyday copy. get a life. be original. nabei. i would have rather not be your friend. go home and slp lah. acting= number one.

anw, ah ong ah, stop changing your blog url can?!

Secret

i really do hate you
but when you fell dwn
it makes me sad
cos you are hurt
idk

thanks alot for shouting at me
dont go back to your old self.
tyvm

pamelia sibei chio.
happy?

Daphne thanks alot
i am not escaping by laughing to myself
i am so stupid to just realise it

言う何を、私は信じる。
しかしすべての事実、
信じてもいい私はあなたを私の目の前にあるか。
私は実際に愛する。
can i really?

survived today's crazy training, with only 3 hours of slp and no breakfast:( , and off i go. run after row was crazy. run to near flyer there. super far. 3/4km? outer route there was longer then inner route. duh. okay. slack with Ashley. i was like annoying her with my ahma exercises moves and singing. 2 by 2 sprint back at the bridge made my heart feel weird/ pain? anw, good job everyone.
i got 3 different tan lines. one, my own skin(white?). two, green Jersey(light brown). three, red Jersey(super dark brown). like Adidas. really. haha
tired:(

Rewind

back to the past
when everyt was unsure
but at least i was happy
turn time back to where we are now
things change
people change
why is everyt changing
is there somet called happiness
all i can say is there is but
not for me
only me alone

yeah if only i could turn the hands of the clock
back to the happy memories i had in life
reality hits you on the face
you cant turn the time back

Dysphoric

Pamelia got some issues with me! she gets happy when she got higher marks then me, happy when i eat fattening food, happy when i am unhappy, happy when ever she's better than me ): hello my friend ): me sad sad, you like that ): its just i dont show k ): *dont get angry when you see this, i am just saying it. zZzzZZzz

Home econs, i got nthing to say abt her. ppl, relax luh k? she cant be like that forever. later she see my blog i just die okay. jealousy kills eh? chill pill for you?

missed):

MALICIOUS

Repeating in my head, saying, telling, warning, bitching, advising.
Compare, concluding the results of me being inferior.
Unique you would say about the other?
Down to my feet, face to face with it.

HAHAHAHAH
isnt this funny?
ps, i didnt fight with anyone.

NEXT TO YOU.

Out with Andrea today. so long since the last time we went out. both bus trips were like heart to heart talks and sharing what we have gone through. yeah, we got same conclusions :) we have got a sad life eh:( *omg, both of us on diet!

Nxt bus trip, back home alone, saw an accident. already happened before i saw what have happen. luckily or else i will faint. saw this old Indian lady lying on the floor. like the face facing dwn:( hope she is alright. *prays..... life's so fragile, the person nxt to you, being so dear to you, might be gone the next moment, before you realise it. dont you just agree with me?

ISSUES WITH MYSELF

edited
this is not a song-.-

i dont know why
always i look at the light at the side of the blah
i start smiling to myself
mayb i was just think
what did you said to yourself?

you hiding from me
i hiding from you
both hiding from each other
doing things that cant let each other know when caught
pretending actions take place(omg)
keeping things from me
faking stories ( you did, i didnt)
telling me you dont want to be what you use to be
as it wasnt serious ( now you are ah ?)
and its a sin ( whatever)
dont tell me you are the best
and the i am Innocent okay kind of shit
you are like 2 in 1
sadly to say
deep down i know you better than anyone
no one will believe, agree what i said
i know can already:)
hahahahhaha
you so malicious
oh no, how now?
faster go worry abt this

i dont learn from my mistakes
always telling yourself
yay, am not gonna do it again
but the next day,
you forget what you have told yourself
and let the same mistake repeat itself
hey!
you just lied to yourself
people are like that
and its their nature that cant be changed
i admit it myself

tyvm
you joined me
bitching like there's no tmwr
no one's perfect.
only me:)
hahah no jk.

character analysis
i am literature student okay!

i am not talking abt any one tho.
i was just thinking, reflecting <- sounds familiar daddy! haha
aiyo later ppl think i talking abt them, angry with me i= *sad sad
it's just myself
and mayb i might be referring to my imaginary friends:)
i have been editing this for like thousand times and now its 10.18pm -.-

mayb you might be thinking its you(its not)
or mayb you find this useful for yourself
who knows?

anyone with problems:
no one can help you
only, you can help yourself

thanks for looking at my post
now i need chocolates :(
going to swim now(10.35)
complain complain, talking to myself * noisy
madness
BAI.

UP TO YOU.

back from 4.3 run:)
everyt i run i will have the same topic to think abt. wtf
happy cos my stamina still there, speed? idk. hahah
last time i dash but i got walk, today i slow but didnt stop:)
hahhaha
run 26 min while kao 27!
she very funny
say her tyre want to flat liao
wanted to laugh but if i did i cant run anym
so we just run our own spd, throw her at the back!
breakfast after with her parents:)
then sent me home:) *nice nice
hahahah

whole day rot at home):

Fuck

fucking angry
actually i was nice telling my mother who i was out with
but dont know whats her fucking problem go ask my sister wherethe she knows that girl
wtf lah, hate her know.
now on, no matter i go out with daphne/pamelia/angkao/who ever i will make names for them.
seriously cant tahan her.
cb.

TRIP

vivo->sentosa->vivo->NLB->bugis->home

1. macs
2. sun was hot hot today,volley ball, sun tan, swim, Frisbee.
3. eat dumplings:)
4. studying while i was walking ard.
5. eat eat eat eat again
6. homed
-its bad for your health to eat 3 meals a day. fattening. shitzxzx
-i am like lobster now, cos i think my skin forget how the sun felt like after the short break.
i took off my jacket and my maid was like omg. hahahahahah hope friends have their tan too :) thats want you all wantted what right?
-freaking tired.

exercise exercise
tmwr going jogging with my angkao at bedok reservoir, 8am. so happy :) hahahha

I promise you.

TIRED

): x1000000

i want to vomit on you now.
i got headache
i feel like i am going to die.
i hate shopping and thats why i have very little clothes.
and always nothing catches my eye
and then i would only buy esprit pants to wear, like all of my pants only from there zzZZzzZzZ(wenna say pasir malam)
the Truth is that i hate going out with my mother, alt i dont have to worry abt money
she ah, see everyt, want evert, esp. soft toys omg *faint

anw, xiexie angkao for helping. ai ni worxs! hehhehehhe *shy shy

HEY HEY!

joey ang zhu er!ahahah why you copy my picture post?! hahahah okay nvm:) hahahahahahah i total agree with you. wa your words so touching and ture seh! everyone go view! cool:)

i actualy miss everyone): huh? always laugh at me when i cant pronounce get int your push up position?! funny ah! hahahhaha i miss coach suaning me): looking and counting when i did dips. and using the fatherly voice calling, ling ah you dont keep complaining. i miss sonya): my barbie girl): hhah all the crazy things we do tgth when we were partner. hahahah hy, for her weird laughter. ashley for her, wa lau(got this voice for it!) hahaha yijin for staring at me and suddenly brusting out into laughter. belinda for always asking me to keep quite. sylvia for always scolding for not being serious. k4's collection of bedok reservior water and passing dwn the bottle drinking it, tasted so good cos we were thirsty. singing and rowing, purposely capsizing (<-k4 famous for that) hahahah daphne sun tanning, sherie trying to talk to me, but i cant hear cos she too far away from me. every one freaking out when we see ppl wake boarding cos of back wash.. sec 2s for gossiping with as abt ahem ahem! hahahahha sec 1 for always making me ka chong, pissed with you all but its okay. hahhaha i think we are really very lucky to have coach as our coach. he gave us the best, olymic class boats/paddles. really appreciate it v much. and the two coaches for like coaching us. huh and everyone always rotation say what bet i cant keep quite for 5 mins, still time! wth-.- hahahahah many many much more lah.

see we always complain complain abt long hour trainings blah blah blah. but now when training really stops, everyone is like missing it so much. hahahahh
aiyo, dragon boat starting everone can perpare to die. dirty kallang water.

LOVES

click to enlarge! hahah

i miss everyone, everyone in that picture and of course K4! :( plus some more, i dont have your all the pictures): instead of studying home econs i was doing this on my phone! hahhaha actually i miss daphne the most:x hahahhaah

what we do during trainings, laughing like some idiots, and laughing at hahhah you-know-who (fat ahem), singing, me bully you, hitting your head and you say that you forget what you had studied cos i hit your head and then your brain cells dont know how many percent die-.- , we bitching/gossiping/ being rebelious towards sonya/coach/huiying! you saying some weird things when i push you, we imagining angkao and qq climbing trees and many more things i can only imagine when i am with you. getting scolded becos you hit me i hit you back/laughing/talking/ playing, not listening, ALWAYS! during debrief, there's like 1001 more things i can do only with you. and thanks for being there for me when i am sad! hahahahhaah love you most, sherie second, sorry sherie aiai): hahha angkao third! hahhaha followed by the rest

unglam of the most unglam
daphne the pig face, angkao the mad monkey, sherie the slping beautiful ( sorry lah i go make you, then everyone laugh) ):
i think i am gonna get killed by them:x rrrrrruuuuuunnnnnn....

LIFE OF REGRETS

webcam with angkao yesterday. hahahah super funny. alt, she didnt have webcam. hahah was using the lappy. hahah now i only on the com. not both. hahaahah and angkao said i got screwed up hair): haah and i was shouting at her like lots of time. hahahhah webcam you later kkk? :) ahahha okay blog abt you liao

my brother bought new phone cover for me. alt, its only really nice, but thanks:) hahah

and to the mother. hahhaha eh seriously thanks:) kay, the heavy stone in my heart has been removed:) hahhahha xiexie x10000 and yeah everyt also must think positive eh friend? hahah be on standby ah! ahha

so tired): woke up at 10am today for my music lesson-.- haha and the teacher came only at 11.50! zzzz my eye lid very heavy): gonna slp later:) aha

私は見せかけ終わっている :(
hehehe you dont know whats this:) ask me:) hhahaha
igotthingstosay,butiamgonnaputtheminmyheart

BYE):

hahahah spot the extra! hahahahah plus whats with my mouth?! hahhah whatever

:( when i see my maid hug my father, she cried, i cried. when she hug the other maids she cried. i too just cant control. :( on the way to the airport my sisters were like, who cry must treat the rest to eat. so of course i didnt want to play-.- but they were like nvr mind luh, just now one not counted-.-her bags were like 32kg. ahahah my mother bought/gave her lots of things! plus gave her money again before she go in. so when she went in, i huged her like i didnt want to let go:( saying sorry to her for always asking her to go to die whenever she calls me up in the morning, for everything i did to her. :( she kissed me and ask me to be a good girl. everyone was looking at me like some freak cos i was crying like a river-.- my sisters called me retarted! okay i dont want to rmb what happen already lah. depressing:( she went home cos her husband and her got problem:( fucking hate guys! oh ya she fainted in the morning(heard from my another maid) omg. hope everyt will be fine for her back there and she will be safe:( pray pray pray:( wasinah, esther will miss you:(

running with sisters was great. but wat pissed my off was my big sister cheated! asshole. hahahahhah

KNOCK YOU DOWN

3-1=2maids :( so sad

where's my future?
if you say so, then i would be relieve

COURAGE

i got werid face:(

mother said she wanted to bring my friends for movie treat-.- so ask angkao,jasmine,elaina,rachel to go:) ahahhahahaha walked ard pp first. bus trip there was filled with rubbish. die for love and love to die blah blah movie = ramen girl! funny. hahha puchiiiii(spell?)hahahhahah

left with with math paper 1/2 plus home econs:)

not feeling any better...

HAPPENED

i dont know whats wrong with me.
i gotta learn to be strong and hold back the tears.

あなたが いなくて 寂しい気持ちになりました
japanese snacks are like so nice:)
daphne ong!
you you!
hahah future teller
omg, you know what i mean-.-
hahha gross x100000

my sister eats like a cow i swear. she eat dinner already then she go eat like dessert then after a while i see her cutting apples then she go eat like chips. omg-.- hhahah okay so i was studying with her last night, then she suddenly hungry again-.- then i told her we go and eat roti prata aft we study finsh. then she scared my mother scold. hahha so the super nice me told my mother that i was going jogging at like 10pm. hahah but before that i put rafia string dwn my window. (my idea :) )cos later if i walk up my mother will see. hahhah so i went dwn then i came tie the plastic bag to the string. hahhaha then i went up to pull-.- the thing up. my sister at the side laughing like some mad woman. at least that was the only time i was back to my normal self. i told you so, you have got better frens then me:) hahhaha okay, i have got to keep myself busy so i wouldnt think abt crazy stuff that makes we go woooohoooooo. hahahhahahahahahaha :) :) :)
cos i want to a stop crying my self to sleep every night and waking up crying, regretting what i have done. and when ever i cry the presence of my sister makes it worst...........

me love potato salad lot lot:) hhahah
eat eat eat
i was never more important ...

MISSED :(

miss the fun we had
and i miss coach too:(

hahha i told him i want to be reserve nxt year and he knock my head:(

english today was really funny. katzrin said that patrcia last time in kcp told her not to sit on the table cos got table god-.- hahahahha and when we kill insects she will say eh dont kill-.- hahahah wa primary school so holy seh! and she wears this bangle(?) then she say dont touch but i always touch to piss her! hahahha patpat ah patpat.

multi, laptop plus computer. like finally i can multi. home econs! zZZzZZzZZZzZ
hbd feimin :D
i miss canoeing, i miss coach :(
every one happy happy....
blast, blast, blast, numb, numb, numb.hahahha
number one acting:) hehhehehehhe

i tot you would be the best person i could talk to when i am sad. sometimes you are so caring sometimes you are like shit. you just dont understand, no one will. i would so like to hold back all my tears. i guess i would have to depend on my self. bye sister.

hi this post is about jasmine, i promiss her i would blog abt her:) hahhahah okay. JASMINE. okay done blogging abt her.

my phone is taken away by my fucking super retarted mother-.- cos of like no reason? she is such a bitch i swear. anw, i have my means and mthds to still have a phone hhaha right rachel? hahhahah kk. dont want to say much. cos my sister reads my blog. wtf.

i am very sad:(

jolene ah jolene... WHY DID YOU LOCK YOUR BLOG?! now how i read huh? unlock!

nad show me how she cut herself today:( can you be a good girl and stop........? :(

i am not gonna see you again, am i?

burn

so i was playing with the lighter me and daphne bought for the cake that day. and ahhh i saw this box(?) writing parfum(so french) on my table. and i rmb that it was brought in france at fragonard afew years ago? and the super smart me went to light the lighter and press on the spray at the same time. and happily to say i accidently burn some of my hair:( so smart right? and i am suffering from massive headache as due to the massive intake of the smell of perfum my whole room in filed with it (i cant take the smell of perfum:( )

dinner at airport later i guess?

PICTURE POST!! :)

edited

so daphne ong ning yuan said that she was very sad becos i didnt put any pictures i took tgth with her-.- okay here is it. i was putting them tgth on my phone while talking to her:) hahahahha
SHERIE LIM! :)

so tired:(
K4!
warm up

signature style:)
swimming alone then daphne come join! leave sylvia and sherie alone. but in the end i help okay, not like daphne!
see got evidence sherie always bully me kick me:(

1000 over:)

after, preparing for 500 scary
mr.j's sunglasses:x hahahhaha the sun too hot, for me to use later during race-.- freakzxzxzkao and sonya, you two did well:)
you too sherlyn:)

and for this too:) :( kao and ashley. its alright k:) ai you too the max:)
you have full of unglam pictures:x hahhah okay love you, dont be sad.

prize giving

mr ang!!!

-.-

eh eh eh

you know i got disease, must stand far far

hahha finally

prize winners charlotte,collette,dianty,kimberlyn,hweixin,ang kao,krystle, k4:)

hahahh good job every one, even if you dont have the medals, but still got into the finals

B div. 3RD!:) my face suck luh:(

TEAM! (beside ms lam-.-) hahha

speed boat with paddle-.- coach so funny luh! ( at bedok)

i am sure i am gonna miss coach during this long(?) break :(

and no more motivation how saddening and depressing:(

i swear i have a very retarted face:(

i am gonna have a full picture post(nations) like soon, REAL SOON. first take all the pictures from ppl:x


nations

day 1- okay gess 1000 heats race dwn is like omg. blogged abt it before

day 2- mrs lingesh is quite nice lah actually. hahah okay 500 heats was like slacking,screaming like mad dogs, laughing-.- cos we very lazy. okay then bgss so proud come up saying, yes!! omg tell you kc so lousy, we so scared of them, aiya no need la! loser leh they all omg. super angry. hello?! what were we doing and what were you doing? so coach said, they first to laugh, we last to laugh.


day3- semi finals. proud of all of you all. to toa payoh with part of team, meet wenna aft, headed to J8. movie with her frens. i swear you dont know how stress i feel. like no one. like stress until i ...?

day4- finals finals finals... omg my pants like on fire luh. okay sorry k4 1000- i give up. wasnt prepared at all-.- got 3rd:) so okay. signature style, capsize.. hahhaha created comedy sia. went into the boat they didnt drain, so yeah i STOOD up and jump dwn. heng the boat nvr turn sia. hahahha then i swim back myself. okay cgss that sarah swee? okay kcp girl so was like wa you all very heng ah get 3rd. wth luh?! argh! want to slap her face yknow. i was like we put in power okay, then she say dont lie?! wth la. coach was like yes should say, we didnt put in power and we are heng but not like you all put in power but cant win okay then

500 was scared but relive that 1000 is over. 3rd again. all the boats were like near each over. signature style. capsize. and they didnt wantted to care abt us-.- hahhaha okay ppl laugh at me cos i was using mr j's sun glasses-.- so yeah straight away go buy coke light. sibei shiok:) hahahahhaha so prize giving c div was like 1st, b div was like 3rd? coach was very, super happy? :) hahhaha okay i think we didnt let him dwn. cos he wanted the b to get 4th but we got 3rd? ahahhahaha

so tampinese aft, daphne and me went to surprise to juniors:) we bought a cake from prima deli(spell)? hahhah hope they liked it. then we bought the coaches something to share. hope they like it too.

dearest k4, sorry for all the shitty mistakes i had made. and i think we did pretty well cos i only train lesser then 1 month with you all-.-hehheh and really god helped us:) ahahhahaha we pray like mad. hahahahahha okay, LOVE YOU ALL:)

i want to thank ppl who wished me luck and coach esp. hehehheehhehe thank god too we prayed like very hard in the boat hahahaha

day 2

aunty

cake

sorry k4:( for tapping water like in the middle and make everyone tap too and stop:( and let gess catch up:( really sorry. and those vulgarities shoutted were like W-O-W! hhahahahah a angry esther can do things better:) ass ah you all! hahah know already then like give me hell. hahahahah jiayous for tmwr k:) 500:) no worries, like really. okay esther is back to talking to herself:) hahahha so dont care her ah. and there goes ppl giving me that look. THAT LOOK. hahahha okay esther shut up.

da jia hen hao. just bu yao fan qi in the zhong zhain. kays:) okay love:)

esther! iii....l...o...v....e yyyooooooouuuuuuu dont give up! there goes daphne saying it in the middle of the race. super funny. and her voice like shakey and draggy. i nearly laughed-.- daphne the random idiot xiao ben dan! hhahaha

you will never know how scary this is. omg our name is chij (kc) -.- hahahaha k4 k4 k4:(

hey you there!:(

i swear i am very scared.
the stress, hope, effort we put in is so scary.
the people talking abt this and that, saying we can, not giving up half way.
is really making me have LOTS of white hair.
eh, my direction got problem:( pick one, direction or power?
omgzxz how now?:( 1000/500 can kill me.
i swear i will beg coach to let me be in reserve nxt year? :(
i hate competitions.
k4 ppl gonna shout those stuff that will make me go wohoo(angry) so i can perform my best!:) heheheh
how now? huh:(
eh, my scared-ness is like no words can describe.
anw, jiayous k everyone racing:)
i am hope-less.

miss your partnership like 1000 percent:( alt, we fight at times. my hair so gross

why all of you the same?
dont make me get pissed with you okay
cos i really dont want to
but the way you talk
is really irritating
very stress now
i had enough
try being me?
do you want?
bye

went home after 20mins of school

headed to kk.

i got a 3 weeks mc.

but you see,

if i ignore it, she will scold

and if i dont ignore it, he will scold

he/she, which person more important?

is it worth the pain, tears, time?

now, ask yourself.

i am really tired.

and what happen yesterday,

i am disappointed

i am a disgrace and stuff

then, what about you?

so you are older

has a level job

you think you can tell me what to do?

look whos the bitch
students/ teachers,
both humans,
i see no difference
and dont think neither one of them should be treated differently.
i cant say no when you force me to say yes
i cant talk back becos you say its rude
then what am i suppose to do?

hate you
serious, tell me what have you done during the years when you are in charge

you suck hardcore

all you do is sit there like a I-D-O-T.

might self go home and breast feed your children.

mother fucking bitch.

irritated!

teachers dress in kc uniform-.- omg. carried sherie and run in the telematch lanes. ahhahahha from like 3 to 5. dirrection got problem one. brought her from here to there, there to here. sarah made me laugh super lot. hhahahah cos got like 3 ppl faint?-.- then they say elizabeth(idk who is she) episode 800. laugh like siao. and that marybeth-.- ew. ms goh so retarted. hahahahah and i was using sarah's cam to take the fake ppl. and ms goh scolded us! (%^!(*!^anw, today was super funny:)

sexy big ass sherie!