how i wish you were here......

putting it together, but its broken.

i am scared to go up the weighing scale:(


phone bill was $400.
out going= $100 plus,
internet=$900 but S.T they charge me 200 plus cause thats the max they are going to charge from people.
i need to get that circle off my phone,
brother/sisters all dont have it,
anyone wants to help?
mummy doesnt want to talk to me (:
thus, i am happy:)


:(sorry for hitting you:(

berrylite is addictive (strawberries,honeystars,oreo)
omg i want some more:(


i fell down again today):
elbow, knee hurts like shitzx


hate attention seekers! &*(&@#*(&


:( sad life. she's more important.

http://entertainment.sg.msn.com/Celebrity-Gossip/article.aspx?cp-documentid=2627690


i want to follow him go

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONG LAO SAI ! :)
love you x 100000000 k:)
thanks for being there:)

WALAO!
chinese=free period
chit chat/eating/joking/playing/shouting
what is this?!
and i got scolded by sabrina:( cause i use her badminton racket to smash the honey star:(
subjects are only 'just pass' or rather failed badly.
study like never study,
so might self dont study right?
can save time !


-its raining AGAIN-.-

rain ,train, pain

chee-na


我也懂


拿麥的手不能顫抖


曾握著


就能感受你比我難過


誰寫的


歌詞那麼適合放手


我怎能捨不得




我到底哭什麼　


哭什麼


明明搞笑的



can i say something? i failed my chinese. 19/50. cool x1000000000

And all you show
It’s simply true
It makes me cry
I wonder how
I’ve lived my life


i am fading
fading away
into a person
that is not me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ie-mpO1PGXQ&feature=related
the video is so, so sad):
gone too soon
gone too young
her smiles are so beautiful
hope she will enjoy her last weeks/days of her life
she really impress me
jade goody, you are such a strong woman
life is fragile.



i am really sorry
sorry for my actions
sorry for not stopping myself
sorry for spoiling your day
i know some things just cant be undone
but i am here really
feeling very bad
cause
i dont want to lose you, friend
sorry):
ihatemyself

feel
cant
hold
same
how
:(
sorry
forgiveness

things that i shouldnt be doing
* not to eat chilli
-i used chilli sauce today
* not to eat seafood for two weeks
-i eat prawn,squid with pizza one pic from fish and co.
*not to touch/take out for one month
-i just took it out when i bath, and while walking home. and plus SOMEONE, scare me while i was putting the stud inside, thus cause me to poke otherwhere else!

thanks for frightening me today by sing/shouting): idk. wl, night mares ltr how? like my sister (inside joke) hahahha and you liar still say i am a cheater! hahhahahahah asshole (evidence evidence) hahhahahhahha

cause daphne always does crazy stuff with me
although she always push me to be the first
we do before we think


thanks yeah, for TRYING (jk) to make me happy
did things that i have not do for a LONG time
you happy already luh!): xxxxxxxxxxx

12.22min, 4th:(
running and thinking, the words just keep repeating in my head. the more i think the more sad i get:( not good. felt like vomitting when i came back:(
honey bunny and che cheong fan run so fast. HB,2nd CCF,1st
love honey bunny and che cheong fan, both, made my day:(
che cheong fan, house to swim later.
i am apple pie.
:( what happened?
:'( :'( :'(
why me?:(
:(

i will do well in my 2.4
i got a sad thing to vent on by running fast
yeah, i can run when i feel sad/angry
12mins please
i am so tired:(

bring me back to yesterday,
when i was smiling joking around
when i was never been affected by anything
when i have no worries
when i was able to comfort someone who is sad
when i make anyone who is sad smile
when i can put a brave front infront of everyone even if it hurts deep down
when i had the luck go luck days
when i hate it to cry infront of people
when i dont really care what others say about me
when i could easily move on
when i was full of rubbish
when i dont really cry
when i wasnt serious in anything i did
when i dont get sick easily
when i was irritating
when i was talkative


headache with swollen eyes

-morning kenna scolded by mother/sister saying i am crazy cause was tearing non stop:(
-chinese, ok i feel bad for...... anw, thanks pat :( *****'s fauly luh, made me no mood to study yesterday
-i forgot how to write my chinese name, so i had to ask wu, so ps:(
-lit easy, was laughing while doing, ok retarted, i did q2, and wrote 6pages about how i feel?! heng study before she talk to me
-msged my sister in school, she is my girlfriend:) alt, she keep asking me not to be a L.
-akira's my new friend, love her/him to the max
-better as friend than lovers
-i like making notes, notes=point form
g: you les isit or b?
e: siao random, i tot i am with you? hahha girlfriend *winks
f: i tot you with akira?
hahah e.f.g, ok random
laughed like mad i swear, until miss T scolded us
ILOVEAKIRA OKAY, COS SHE/HE LISTENS TO ME WHEN I TALK.

you made me laugh although i was feeling sad
you talked to me when i fought with me friends
you are the first thing in the morning i think about
i think i have over do all the things
thus resulting the result of today
can i undo the mess
bang there goes my heart

have been irritating people around me this fews days
stress stress stress
thats all i say
and it does really irritate them
freaking out for no reason
walking up and down the corridor
outside of class
thinking of stuff that i should be even be thinking
and self talking is back again
whats worst
ca's here
not studying
no mood
total spoiler


I-M-Y
and thats ture
maybe i should open one eye
and close the other
all i can do is just sit there
and let time pass
i guess jealousy kills


esther, whats your probem? sssshhhhhhh

i asked you a question
you answered
that was the answer i wanted to hear
but i didnt know if you said the thruth
half wanting to believe in you
half not wanting to
asked friends around yes/no
some said yes some no
but i have chosen to believe in you
but it just disappoints me time and time again
to know that you lied to me AGAIN
tell me striaght in the face
you dont want to hear me anymore
cause i dont really have self control
maybe i will be hurt
the pain will last long
but not forever
she's the one
i have been saying about
but
why?


put yourself in my shoes
know how does it feels like?

i painted my nails hot(super) pink and dark purple during chinese today

Future?

:(

after reading it time and TIMES again, i finally know who you have been saying about. will you even be there for me?:(

:( dont know what to say.
bye.

happy valentines day:)

attention attention.
wthx has very white teeth, thus making her look like an indian. must let EVERYONE know before she says about me! ok i am not being racist over here:)

why? )':
i cant hold it back.
J, i am ok.

diappointed.


i knw that something was wrong. half way baking, things start to turn wrong, and i was feeling uncomfortable, headache came back, my heart was beating fast. shut up.

2.4km tmrw= dead
i think i am going to fail
target 12/13min
since dianty is 12 min plus
i can do it
i hope
yes its just a HOPE
any one please make me angry
so i can run
when ever i am angry
= can run very fast
ok i know this sounds crazy
but its ture
belive it or not
its up to you

:(

not very happy
i am having headache
dizzy, giddy,pain
can just die

cause of that sweet

sounds stupid

i am sorry friend, no, not you, its YOU. since so long when i talk to you yeah? i think there is a misunderstanding:( really. friday faster come. i first think what to write now! :x
like how we used to be. maybe i have changed, i am sorry.

joey is so retarted.
j- 'i bet with 85% she will go out with you lah'.
e- ' i bet with you 85% she will not'.
retarted or what.
sorry, its just too joey.
hhahahahha jk. :)
nah, it will not happen.
siao.

:( you.

:( history gonna repeat itself, and i really fear for the worst. how now? this time, its gonna be bad, real bad):

i am going to pon church class/mass nxt sat to go out and eat, ok myself. hahhahaha sad life. :(


i ate two prosperity burger today in one day. i think i have no control sense at all, this few days. two rounds around st stephens primary later with big sister. and my mother is like naging, saying its so late and unsafe.


editted
run two rounds and walk another two rounds. lots of banglas, gross and scary.

hope that everything is stetled by now.


sorry that i didnt take your advise, to stop talking on the phone:( dont be angry alright:( thanks for being there, listening to me complian, to make me happy when i am sad. for making me laugh when you sing. no one will be as nice as you:) you never fail to make up my day:) tyvm hamster girl!:)

mrs siva is cute but she cant teach:(

beach learning is cool.

eliana still think-speak-act the same. love you for always being there for me, making me laugh although its lame at times.

a angry and sad person eat alot eh? what do you thing a subway club sandwich and a subway club wrap.

i tried really hard only to realise how weak i actually am. broke down during homecons. thanks katzrin for listening to me, telling me to cheer up and not to think about it.

suntec-ed.

ashley is so funny.

joey is retarted.

phone

dont let me think of jolene i am so scared.

patpat, all your fault!

sorry, i think i expected too much from you. really hate myself.

i am feeling so unwell. or rather i am having a temperature now

what to add on to it, my old injury came back again. and its fucking painful.

lately, nice people have been coming up to me, telling me things that i shouldnt hear.can you stop bitching about me infront of everyone or rather me, maybe i am not a good/perfect friend to have, but you need not do that right? everyone is just bias, taking sides, need not say, everyone will side you. cause i am bad, not treating everyone nicely. i have never ever bitch about you to anyone, maybe only saying why we fight. just cause of a small reason.that i am really disapointed in you for the way you treated me. you are just so, too over protective of yourself. even if you want to bitch about me, the least you can do is not let me see. you know how it feels? if you dont then dont act like that, you use to tell me not to say mean things that will hurt people's feelings but, what are you doing now? you know how does that hurt me? everyone thinks you are nice, ok fine, i agree, but to me, even when we never fight. you forsaked me for others, come to me when there's no one. what do you think you are trying to do? how many times did i break down cause of this? how many times? and i have to go to school everyday, hoping not to see you as it will just remind me how you use to treat me or rather hurt me. and you like to change storys about your girl friend eh? telling me this but telling others another thing. i heared three versions already. how cool.the first impression you gave me was, nice, funny, caring. please dont let me change that view that i use to have for you. please bear in mind that everyone has a level of tolerance, once gotten too much over it, it might just explode. you are so scary, i am so scared of you, i just cant expect that you are this kind of peron too scary and too cunning. one day, maybe one day everyone will know how i feel. and please dont treat your new friends like the way you treated me and others(you should know) you hurted too many people, and i think you dont wish that every one will hate you, dont you?

-word of advise, pick your friends carefully, although its bad to be like that. a lesson learned.

just a cut too deep to be patched........

:(

:(
sorry ashely, i didnt talk much today. but really, i wasnt angry at you. sorry


joey, hope you will get better. today was the most serious day i had in my k2 life with you. thanks . sorry for shouting at you.


daphne/sherie, didnt talk much today, not that i am angry, just that i very irritated, angry and sad. sorry.


k8 made up my day. 4 k2, ppl's legs on other ppl's boat. fun. standing up and screaming while ppl hold your boat was cool.


'k4' with one other k2 boat was fun, dragon boat eh? miss it soso much. db, when are you coming back?:(
:(

i haven updated the school my new address since i shifted house last november:( how? i am scared:(

:( :( :(
can i dont go to school? :(
friends=? :(
A. J. please stop crying ok. :(
i am very sad. :(
disappointed too. :(
problems after problems. :(

will you be there? :( friend(s) dont seem important to me anymore.
thanks w.

:) hahahahahhaha SY.HX
wenna is a mean girl:( she makes me feel so sad:(
everybody is tired, AEW:)




can i die now? feel sad. and i am going crazy.ily:(

i got running nose:( i think kymberley geh pek jun pass it to my during RE:( she was blowing her nose:(



i got two packs of cotton candy on my table:)

ok father company dinner at no singboard. :( dun wan say anyt, i hate &!*@#^(!my father's childish f.m

my mother extra

hahahhahaha
:)
?!

(:
the view very nice:)
siao, hahhaha

i knw my face very ......

who will be there? if .........